Show and Tell

Alternate Title: Shame On Me

I actually really like the e-mail that Blogher ads sends me to remind me that its been 2 weeks since I last posted on my blog. They are so nice about it in the e-mail "We Miss You"....Yeah, I know. I'm awesome and the world is colder when I don't post. I'm sorry world. Shame on me for withholding my awesomeness.

Crap. The Bloggess says that every time we say 'awesome' God kills a kitten...or something like that. Crap crap.

Anyway..so where have I been for two weeks.....Honestly, I don't' know. I mean, I know 'where' I am...its just that time kinda runs together and it doesn't feel like two weeks. Well, I've been in my room mainly - the TV and computer are in my room so, seriously, there is no reason to ever leave. Right?
The kids have alternated being sick so I spent some time cleaning up vomit off the floor...dang, I can't take credit for that. My husband did it. Both times. BUT, I did spend my precious time watching him!
Wait, that's not right either. The second time I vaguely remember seeing his back through my sleep-filled eyes...I only know it wasn't a dream because the vomit was magically gone by morning. OOOOOOH, Wait!! Maybe it was the Vomit Cleaner Fairy! See, Sean, I TOLD you it was real. If you wait long enough they'll come clean it up for you! (He's giving me that "Seriously?" look again. Dream killer.)


What else...? Oh, my mom has a boyfriend. LONG story. Yes, I'm ok with it...which I guess is really strange considering how much I loved my dad and how close we were....but, Mom has a right to be happy and she knew this guy in High School - they were best friends...So yes, I'm cool with it. However, she has discovered IM so I've lost every area where I can hide from her. She IM's me gushing about him, or freaking out because the computer is screwing with her. I.E., she and technology do NOT get along.

I've taken more pics in the last few days than I have in the last 6 months...which is cool and really pathetic all at the same time. Here are a few of my favs (also explains the title):


My neice "H"

My Best Friend Jennifer and her sister Bri (15 years younger than Jenn)


My nephew "H"



And my Favorite from the day:

Its like there is something freakishly horrible behind me and instead of warning me, she just sits there with this crazy-eyed stare. (She's gonna kill me)

Moving - Again

It just never ends, does it? I feel like I'm the dot in "Pong", bouncing back and forth between two walls. I just want one of them to miss so I can be free of their control!

We are moving again. Why? Because we are 'poor' and our friends are 'poor' and it seems that two families living in one house is the only way that either of us will ever survive.

I keep hoping and praying that this depressive recession will just end already, but then I realize that it probably never will. Why do I think that? The bible, Revelation to be exact...enough said. I don't talk about religion...maybe I should, I guess - show some of my reality. Just not today.

Our room is set up and only half of our things are going into storage this time - so I do feel better about that. We will actually have a presence this time around, feel as though it belongs to us too, and that is nice. I'll have to get some pics :). I'll have a place to work on my photography once the warm weather comes back (Please, GOD, don't let that take too long) and the back yard is enclosed so I'll be able to work on my archery too - when I'm not playing on the Wii that is :).

Fall

This morning my husband helped our son get ready for school, since I refused to haul my butt out of the bed. Not long after the bus left Sean came into our room and said, "I know you don't want to get up right now, but you have GOT to come outside. The leaves are falling off the trees and you can hear it."

HUH??? I thought he was just being a smarta** and wanted me to get up because he had to be. To keep the peace I climbed out of the bed, grabbed a coat, herded a two year old out of the room, listened to a 3 year old scream because I had forgot her, go back for the 3 year old then search for the sippy cup, and finally made my way out into the finger-freezing cold. I grabbed a cigarette as my bare feet began the process of develping frost bite from the concrete and turned around to see my husband staring at the tree in our front yard.

Then...I heard it. Due to the frost last night, the leaves were so heavy they were falling off of the trees in clumps. Clumps that sounded like rain. Trees all around us were shedding their green, orange and red coats. It was just...a magical moment. What is more magical...my husband noticed it. (Then told me I had to blog about it..lol) He is not the "stop and smell the roses" kinda guy. He's more of a "roses die" kinda guy..lol. I was impressed and surprised. It was worth getting up way too early and freezing my butt off.

In other news, I went to Ike's school program last night. It was cute and I loved hearing a few songs from around the world. Watching the music teacher shake her booty in front of a couple hundred people was priceless. I wish I had her courage.
I cried for the first 15 minutes of the program. First it was because it was my little boy up there. Second was because my nephew was up there. Then it was because both of them were up on the same stage and I was there to see it. Which merged into the fact that both familes, best friends since High School, were together watching our kids on the same stage. Yeah, I was blubbering by that last bit and had to get control of myself. Oh...and when the curtains opened it was like opening night of a Hollywood premiere. Soooo many flashbulbs going off I'm surprised the kids were able to see the teacher and her manic gyrations. (did I spell that right? Man, my spelling has been really off lately.)

Flickr Favorites and Good News

This week's flickr favorites can be found HERE.

You know...I had the hardest time waiting until Friday to post those. I may have to do a flickr favs twice a week :).

Up until about 6 months ago I was very active in an online Pyramids card league in Yahoo!. We played in Isdes and called ourselves the Mickey Mouse League. I was an admin...among other things, and I loved it. Life started getting the better of all of us and I had to resign. Depression and things being so hectic just didn't allow me to do the things that I loved doing. Now that our lives are somewhat better, I've tried going in the room but participation has dropped to nearly nothing.

Last night one of my friend's in Australia asked anyone that wanted a tournament to come in the room. I played...and won...and got to chat to some friends I haven't talked to in a while. Apparently, such a long while that one of them was able to get engaged. I was floored and incredibly excited. After joking with her for a bit she told me that she would love for me to be the photographer. Yay!!!!! I started bouncing on the bed. Its the best news I've had in a while. It won't be until March of next year....but that will give me enough time to get some things I need...like an external flash and 50mm lens.

New Blog Layout

I was sitting here...bored out of my mind...and decided that I should change my blog template. I loved the clean black look of what I had before...but was tired of adding things that had white backgrounds and it driving me nuts. I like for things to flow.
I'm having a rough day...things are bugging me and bringing me down. This house seems so small for 9 people...especially when 1 of the 9 is a complete Jacka** most of the time and 2 others seem to want to be like him.
After waking up this morning and talking to Jenn I had planned to come in here and blog. My title would have been Men. The blog post would have been "Men....". I would not have written men suck or stink or any other variation...I hate making generalizations about anyone or anything. I know some wonderful men...and I know some jerks.
All of this seems like I'm rambling, I'm sorry for that. I just needed to get that one word off my chest I suppose. I can't go into the details of our conversation, but she was hurting and I was...AM pissed about so many things. Some days...its just so hard to be here. (wait, not here as in "on earth"....Here, as in "this situation"....just to clarify.)